If it's all that I can do.

One week before I got on a plane to Cambodia was a complete whirlwind. I still hadn't received confirmation from my boss that the 2 weeks off were approved, I was $450 short- so my trip wasn't even completely paid for, I was packing up my apartment so I would be ready to move when I got home- I didn't even know where I would be moving to, and I interviewed for a job that I never thought I would even apply for! I knew that I was called to go to Cambodia though and I thought, "if this is where God is really calling me to go, then I need trust Him, no matter what!"

There were people in my life who I knew thought I was completely insane for even considering this trip in my situation. I didn't have the vacation time, the money, or the time in the midst of a move. I could lose my job and become homeless at the very same time- a bit dramatic, I know, but this was my reality. There was never a point though, that I ever considered not going to Cambodia. I knew that God was doing something bigger than I could imagine, and all I could do is hang on for the ride. Let me tell you- it was a wild ride and I'm still in awe of what He has done!

2 days before I left, I got an email from my boss that simply said "your time off is approved", my team worked at Nascar for me, where they would be making exactly $450, and my best friend and her husband offered to let me stay with them until I found another place! I was overwhelmed to say the least. All these things were falling into place and I know that none of these were just by coincidence.

The last thing I did before I left, was interview for a position at my church. I had always told myself that the church is the LAST place I would work, even if i was completely desperate! But there I was sitting in the interview anyways. It didn't make a ton of sense to the interviewing Pastor why I would eave a great job in this economy to come work at the church and willingly take a pay cut. The only answer I had was this, "I am great at what I do, but I am not passionate about what I do. I am passionate about Pure and the direction it is going. I believe that God is doing great things in and through Pure and I would be a fool not to take the risk and be a part of it."

I came home from Cambodia and was offered the position! So here i am, 2 weeks into the job and I love it! I wake up every morning excited to come to work- because I know that i would never have accepted this position or even applied for it, but God knows better than me! I am reading "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan and it says this:

"Obsessed people are more concerned with obeying God than doing what is expected or fulfilling the status quo. A person who is obsessed with Jesus will do things that don't always make sense in terms on success or wealth."- Francis Chan

I know that me going to Cambodia and quitting my job doesn't make sense to people, but the reality is that my life shouldnt make sense if I am following Jesus. I'm sure that the when the disciples decided to follow Jesus, there were plenty of people who didnt understand- but they followed anyway. I will trust and obey God if it's all that I can do to give back to this life He has given me.